3 posts tagged “list”

01 i measure the circumference of my wrists with my fingers every day
02 i think better in the dark
03 i like climbing trees and rocks and exploring
04 i steal glimpses of sidewalk lovers
05 i prefer walking with nowhere in mind
06 i pinch the skin between my knuckles for self-discipline
07 i want to stop false induced sleep
08 i want to talk to you
09 i want to salvage this
10 i want too much
11 i think i miss you
12 i might despise repetition
13 i need no one and everyone
14 i need a good conversation
15 i obsess over cloud formations like an addict
16 i have intangible addictions
17 i listen to this song for harsh reminders
18 i think i am not better off
19 i am unlucky
20 i am lucky

I second-guess everyone I meet, give them an alias and a romanticized personality, so I won't be disappointed. I think about what-if all the time. I cartwheeled today and sat in the grass, collecting flowers for crowns, and being silly.  I should share my whimsies with someone else one day.  And then I would catch the day in polaroids and forget it by the following morning.  Everyone is erasable except the ones who matter (sevensevenseven).

No pictures.  Well, there are pictures but I realized weddings are outside of my forte.  I took some self-portraits (not really) that were pretty ridiculous.  I don't know, I had fun.  Anyway, what the weekend came down to were the following:

• Fresno is in the middle of nowhere with nothing to do.  Just houses and roads – your average wasteland.  In fact, the trip down there was infinitely more exciting.
• Though I don't advocate racing, it's actually hysterical when doing so against a pair of tweens (I'm sure they were older, but they looked pre-pubescent) who thought they could outrun a veteran and a Civic.
• I want to run around large expanses of greenlands or wheat fields.
• Getting dolled up is time-consuming, I daresay.
• My religion non-specific and ever-changing, it's a wee bit uncomfortable when all the guests, bride and groom are Children of God, talking about God, praising God, preaching God – you get it.
• Smirnoff.  That is all.
• Lemon buttercream with raspberry bits, wedged between two layers of vanilla cake, and topped off with vanilla frosting is yummy.
• Roses are pretty.

The above made me consider the possibility of going on a road trip with no set arrival date, just driving along to our ultimate destination with random stops along the way and creating an experience.

Aqualung makes me incredibly giddy inside, and I aspire to play like Matt Hales in the unseen, distant future.  Speaking of playing like Hales, I managed to sail along Prelude (Bach) during my recital earlier tonight with one minor mistake.  Let us not speak of the major scales, though; apparently, the positioning of my fingers were all wrong, but that's neither here nor there.

What else – oh, managed to strike out two people off my holiday gift list.  I have a long way to go, considering I just started.  Really, with me, Christmas is during January, sorry to say. :(

Thanks, Jenbean, I love you for the chocolates.  Really!  And seriously, I am in love with the card.  I need to get a box solely for the letters you've sent me; they're overflowing in the case I'm currently keeping them.

Now, to cover all the bases, things that make me happy:

• Winter Break!
• Pretty letters and/or greeting cards and/or postcards with good ramblings.
• Stationery and/or notebooks littered with stories and quotes and other sayings about nothing.
• Online stores that make my life easier.
• Piano-driven songs and rainy evenings to lull me to sleep.
• Hot chocolate and cute things.
• Expecting a few eventful weeks ahead that is sure to be fun, I hope!
• Rain, rain, rain – did I mention rain?
• Classical music – Debussy, in particular.
  
• Scarves, I love scarves.
• A constant state of semi-expectations and curiosity.